If you asked me just one year ago what my life would be like on January 18th, 2010 I can guarantee you that I would have been wrong. The past 6 months have been transformative to say the least. Enough sadness to ignite an insane ability to feel anything and everything. Enough happiness to feel reborn. Enough change to completely abandon all previous visions of my future and welcome new ones. Enough pain to be stronger than ever before. And enough love to feel like anything is possible.
I have found that life is more unpredictable than I had even previously suspected. It is completely surprising and it does not wait. Over the past 6 months my perception of life changed from something like a train making stop after stop to one where my only way on board is to run along side, catch a handle, and use all my strength to pull myself up and on board.
But it's amazing what all of this change has allowed me to do. It has allowed me to reconnect with myself, made me aware of my independence even while in the company of loved ones, pushed me to reevaluate what exactly it is I'm doing on this planet and, most importantly, it has made me learn to take life for the risky, painful, exciting and limitless adventure that it is...
“Adventure is a path. Real adventure - self-determined, self-motivated, often risky - forces you to have firsthand encounters with the world. The world the way it is, not the way you imagine it. Your body will collide with the earth and you will bear witness. In this way you will be compelled to grapple with the limitless kindness and bottomless cruelty of humankind - and perhaps realize that you yourself are capable of both. This will change you. Nothing will ever again be black-and-white.” - Mark Jenkins
So, as I begin 2010, I will try to not let this adventure beat me. I'm going to love hard, listen closely, breathe deeply, and, most importantly, be thankful for all of it : )
SONGS I LOVE IN JAN. 2010:
"Us" - Regina Spektor
"Just Say Yes" - Snow Patrol
"Sweet Disposition" - Temper Trap
"Cosmic Love" - Florence + The Machine
